Bring It On!
Ok, I am officially sick of hot weather. Yeah, I live in Washington state where the weather doesn’t get NEARLY as gross as it did in WV, but I am sick of this weather mostly because of the clothes I have to wear. The warmer months of the year always enhance my insecurities concerning my body image. In order to keep from dying, one has to wear lightweight, not-so-covering clothes. I always feel like I am over-jiggling or something. In the cooler months I can wear jeans and sweaters and look almost human. I can feel comfortable going out in public and not convince myself that people are looking at me thinking
“That girl needs to be wearing a smock over that outfit. I’m trying to eat for God’s sake!”
My logical self tells me that I am completely stupid all the time. Nobody is looking at me, and if they are it is because I am standing in front of something they want to see. I have what you would call an average body. I’m not special in either spectrum of the scale. The simple answer that I can give to explain why I am so whiney and annoying about my body image is because I am a little bit of a perfectionist, and the fact that my body and looks are not as good as I think they should be, I am disgusted with myself….and I don’t like to exercise for 2 hours a day…..and I have an appetite to rival any man’s. I try to be nonchalant. I’ll just keep doing that. I’ll work on being nonchalant. Then I’ll be awesome……in cooler weather that is.
