The past few days out here have been a little icky.  You know, gray, cool, not very hospitable.  I know I was bitching in an earlier post that I want the cooler weather to come ( still do!) but I can’t help but appreciate a really beautiful sunny day like today.  I don’t have much to report actually, just felt like writing a little.  I’m trying to get Jessie to locate my printer so I can do some editing on a book I would like to send to a publisher before year end, and my hair is still atrocious.  You know the new Domino’s commercials with that little brownie guy running around?  That is what my hair looks like…short, square, and very very brown.

My cats were being ridiculously cute today so I sat in the middle of the living room and took like 50 pictures of them.  I wonder sometimes what kind of mother I will be to my future children.  Will I be doting on them like I am with the cats, or will I have the sense enough to treat them like people and push them to be individuals?  Who knows.  There’s no point in fretting about it now anyway.  When the time comes I will do what I see fit at that time.  That’s just the way I am.  With me, there is absolutely no point to plan anything ahead.  I like to go where I am led.  I never really planned to move to Washington.  Never really wanted to.  You want to know where my dream home is?  Maine.  I get a lot of raised eyebrows over that, but seriously.  It is not a very populated state because of the winters, and it would be terribly easy to become a hermit.  I kinda like that.  I have a huge problem with having close neighbors because I am incredibly self-conscious.  Every time I go outside, I feel like I am being watched, or that people are looking at me.  I know this is not true.  I’m a paranoid freak, but some things cannot be helped.  The point is, is that I would like to finally settle in a place where my house would be pretty far away from any neighbors.  I’d like to be out in my yard without anybody driving by or staring at me from their own yard.  Luckily for me, Jessie feels the same way, so hopefully we will reach a point in our life where it would be possible to move out  and away from other people.  I’d really like that.