Besides my brother, Lukas is the only person on this planet who likes me just a little more than Jessie (if Jessie and I were to ever split, my family would ask what I did wrong, but my brother would have my back).  Don’t misunderstand, Lukas loves his daddy a lot.  When Lukas is having awake time, he has tons of fun with Jessie.  They bounce and make funny faces and you can tell very clearly that Lukas enjoys his father’s company.  However, if Lukas begins to cry for any reason, his father simply cannot console him and after a period of time, he gets handed to me.  I know I’m probably nothing more than a warm soft blanket to this kid right now, but it makes me feel relevant to his life that I can comfort him and get him to stop crying.  I don’t do it by shoving a bottle in his mouth or putting a plastic bag over his head, I just hold him and talk to him.  It’s like he’s saying, “Ok, Dad.  Fun time was great, but I’d like to go back to the warm soft blanket now,” and when this doesn’t happen quickly enough, he screams.  I sound like an asshole right?  I’m competing with my husband for our child’s affections, right?  No.  But it’s really hard for me sometimes to have to play the part of the Disney witch to Jessie’s helpless but oh so likable princess, especially when it is mostly other people who put me in that role.  Right now, my baby is blind to that and I’m enjoying it while I can.  You never know, down the road he may start to see me that way too.  Also, I love the fact that I put Jessie in the same category as The Little Mermaid and Sleeping Beauty.  He can be a poof sometimes.

What is better than a Krispy Kreme?  Lukas right after a bath.  I never really cared for the scent of baby products until I smelled them in Lukas’ freshly washed hair.  It’s addictive.

This blog took forever to write!  It’s not so easy to do with a baby in one arm, but I managed!  I’m so hardcore!

P.S.  If any of you guys still pray, I wonder if you could say a prayer for Brandon.  He’s in Afghanistan until the Spring.  Although he assures me he’s safe where he is, he’s spending a second year of holidays away from his family and I know he’d give just about anything to be with his loved ones at those times.

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