"You get mad at me when I DON’T do that!"

"Well you’re not supposed to let me!"

"I’m not?"

"No!  It gives me boners!"

I realize I should have boundaries and those boundaries should include not sharing intimate conversations I have with my husband, but I simply couldn’t help it.  I’m not lucky enough to have completely adorable pictures of Jessie and myself posing our horrifically sunburned legs with goofy smiles, so I share these tidbits.  They’re just as good…..right?

So the in-laws just now pulled out of my driveway.  By the time I wake up tomorrow, they will already be in the air on their way back to the east.  You know what?  They were a JOY to have.  I’m not being a shit…honest.  They were so fun to have here.  Yeah, they got on my nerves a little bit.  They sit and praise Jessie and Jimmie like I’m not even in the room and I should be lucky to bask in their glory, but it was SO NICE to have family here.  They blew me away with Lukas too, just like my mom blew me away with him.  They are so in love with that little boy that there is no way that I could feel any sort of resentment towards them about past things.  And they were SO nice to me.  No joke.  I’m going to miss them.  Every time we went to a store….even the grocery store, Tina made sure to buy Lukas a little toy.  His toy inventory has more than doubled.  His bath toy inventory is insane now!  My garage has a pile of presents sitting in it that are waiting for September 29 (Lukas’ birthday) because they went berserk at Toys ‘R Us and got him a ton of stuff ALONG with a little swing-set that they had their hearts set on that is small enough for us renters.  They complimented my cooking like they haven’t had a meal so good in ages and they were just a pleasure to have. 

I’m fucking lonely.  So Jessie and I have talked and we have come to a decision.  The West Coast can kiss our fat asses.  We’re coming back east.  2010, decisions will be made.  We’ll see if this RedClay thing works out like we’re hoping, but we’re coming back.  However, we have already decided that we are not even going to consider either West Virginia or Pennsylvania.  We want to be closer to our families, but being so far away gave us an appreciation for space as well.  But we need our support systems closer to us.  We need to have Lukas closer to his grandparents because they aren’t total douche bags like some of my grandparents are.   I need out of this place where housewives have maids and refuse to cook for husbands who work late nights and spend all the money because they love to shop.  I want simple again.  I want the Atlantic Ocean.  I want my friends and family.  Fuck this place.

I guess I should make some mention that today is our 3 year wedding anniversary.  Three years ago today I walked down the aisle of a HOT church in a HEAVY dress that didn’t fit quite right and married the guy I’d been with for 4 years.  I don’t regret it.  I’m glad I did it.  I still like him a whole bunch.  My attention is forced to be elsewhere today as the in-laws (whom we have not seen in two years) are on a plane as we speak and will be in my house tomorrow.  Am I stressed?  Yeah.  A little.  Anyway, Happy Anniversary Jessie-Poo.  I still love you.